jimmyelmo
kitty,cuddly,kitten,stuffed dog

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

With age comes cynicism...

If only I can go back to being younger...
If only I have no cares in the world...
Just thinking of getting even with my playmate who beat me in our last game of tumbang preso or patintero or jackstone...
If only I just had my mom's sermon to worry about or what my friends would say about my new haircut... who cares anyway?

If only I can go back to being younger...
but come to think of it...
there are perks to being older too...
Can you name a few off the bat?
I can be accountable for every decision I make and just have my conscious to guilt trip me...
well including my parents too and self-righteous people...

I can be accountable for every mistake
for every expense...
Wait! Scratch that... I want somebody else to commit the mistakes...
I want somebody else to spend for me...

If only I can have unlimited source of everything that I want and need and wish for
like Aladdin with a genie from a lamp granting not just 3 wishes and no conditions...

But I don't have a lamp...

All I have though are other things that matter...

I have family...
they love me as much as they can...

I have friends...
They're not much...
but they can stand my aloof, crazy personality and idiosyncrasies...

I have the experience of the past 36 years to help me survive and go forward...
It might not be much...
I might always be ranting or raving whichever the mood strikes
But hey...
I'm still grateful...
I just don't show it much...